Attitude

Bumpy day with Haidyn. Not really sure what the problem is & I'm beginning to think it might be me!

We were going to read a book together so I had him start reading. Jill was our first word & he said it was Joel. Went down hill from there. I am concerned that he won't be able to cut second grade.

Is he just jerking my chain or does he really not know how to read. Does he really not know his letters or the sounds. How does a perental unit know if a kid is just being a jerk.

Since i caught him cheating the other day, looked up what you're suppose to do about it. Advice I read, said to explain why cheating is bad & that you lose friends etc. to your kid. So we had a little pow wow about it. Ten minutes he was lying to me again. So I don't think he really got the jest of our conversation. I often wonder if the people who dole advice actually have kids.

Later while shopping I came across a great book "How To Behave and Why" by Munro Leaf. What great timing the book covers everything, from honesty to being fair. I love it & highly recommend it.

Later, Patrick stepped in, just trying to help but inadvertently made me the bad guy. I just don't understand how these things happen, they start then before I know it are bigger than life. Feels like I have fallen in this big hole.

Starting to have second thoughts about keeping H around. Perhaps he needs to go to another family. Don't know if I can go through this all again as with Nina. Not good long term seems like. I just wanna be happy & pitting me against Patrick will never work. He will always be the good guy.